Only this.

September 29, 2011

Several months after her arrival she contracted malaria, and a high temperature brought her to death’s door and close to despair.  Had God called her to China only to let her die within a few months?  The spiritual anguish and rebellion she endured were worse than the physical illness, but eventually she reached a point of acceptance where she was able to say, “Lord, if it was only this that was Your will, Your will be done.”

(Valeria Griffiths on Marie Monsen, Not Less than Everything, pp. 246-247)

If it was only this.  Only what?  Disappointment.  Disease.  Delay.  Spiritual depression.  Possibly death.  If it was only this that was His will, only this that He had prepared her for here on earth, she was ready — happy — to make His will her home.

… That’s beautiful.


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